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| Well, I'm movin back in. I figured that after a long time away there is no place like home. I was looking through old posts and let me tell you it was amazing how people change. Especially certain people. Uhum....... Well, I prolly won't be on this site as often as my other one but I figured I'd let all the people that don't know the other one know I'm still alive. | | |
| So..... Had a talk last night that didn't turn out good at all, hell, it didn't start off good. It's what i get for being a guy and letting the asshole part run around a bit. Well, 30 mins of sleep and no food since 7 last night. Worked a third shirt illegally just so i wouldn't stay home and do something stupid. It's my fault , i brought it upon myself. what's done is done. I can only hope for a better tommorrow.
On a lighter note....... Timpani makes me happy. It's the one thing I can hit and take out agression with. I might sleep tonight or mabey i'lll chillax for a while. Either way, I don't think i'll go to school tommorrow. There's no reason to. | | |
| So, I've decided something. This something has been bothering me lately....well, mabey longer than lately.I'm not really as big of a deal as I've thought of myself over the last few years. I'm always surrounding myself with people to be happy but it doesn't work. I've realized something though, I'm really lonely. Despite this I need time alone. That doesn't mean what you might think it does. I need to talk with you and you don't want to or something like that. Well, I've had this on my mind to share for a while so I guess now's a good time to do it.
Love is something that can't be taken lightly. It's the one thing that will create and destroy with the same power and emotion for both. Love is a 2-way deal. When one is loved they expect to be loved in return equally if not with a greater love.When one is not loved in return then the love becomes a burden rather than a desired feeling. The lovee will always long for the object of their affection. The lost soul will keep loving and keep putting themselves lower into the ground until eventually they're so deep in a hole that the only way out is to either give up on all chances of being happy in this life or just plain give up. The lost soul will do anything to even feel the slightest bit of love from their desired person. This lovee lives, breathes, wakes up everyday, and puts up with all the shit just for the chance to be loved. This lost soul is dead without love.
My hole is too deep for me to even want to try to help myself. I only wish that I'm sorry ment something. I wish that " I Love You " ment as much as it does in books or movies. I wish that trust was an understood thing, instead of something blown out of proportion. I wish that relationships had an instuction booklet. Rule 1) Relationship involves you and the person you started it with. 2) Forgiving the other person usually involves forgetting as a side effect. 3) If you want to have a happy relationship talk about what is bothering you...... I want things to work out but if you don't then they very well can't. It's up to you.I love you, if I didn't I wouldn't put up with the pain you put me through. I wouldn't try to be good to you, I wouldn't spend money on you, trust you with my money period, stay with you after all the crap that has happened. I wouldn't be with you! I want to talk with you , not to you or at you, with you. I need to know the truth.
Sorry to everyone that expected something different out of my new post. well, Life is only as good as you want it to be........ no promises tho.
Love,
Drew | | |
| Well, it's been a while but i'm still alive so i'll post. has anyone ever felt that the things they say are always overlooked, or underfelt. i wish that for one day everything i say to a person to try to help and/or promise would be more than heard but also felt by that person. IDK, it just seems like the more i try to be the helpful drew that i used to be the more that my help is turned to a novelty phrase to the recipient. just for once i wish that "i'll always be there, or i'm sorry, or i love you" ment all that i mean for it to. i guess that's just life tho.
Well, i was looking over my posts of past and i've decided to make an announcement......... i'm sorry. i'm sorry to those who had to go through the dramatic life i lead with me through xanga. i'm also sorry to two specific people for the whole situation. if i would've been more head strong than it never would've happened, and i'm sorry to the third party who probably has decided that everything i say is a lie because i'm satan or something along those lines but still, i'm sorry. | | |
| Yes! now all shall relive the glory of my pink pants!!!! Mwahahahahahahahahahahahaha!!!!!!!!!! | | |
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